Precious...just precious.

I came across Winnie's facebook and found Caelan's picture with Sam Gor. It was just so precious. I didn't think I would see a NEW picture of Caelee ever again. The emotion that came up was just overwhelming.

Human are just so greedy. I was just settled in my griefing and just accepted the finality of Caelan's life. Then I stumbled on this picture. It was so bitter sweet. On one hand I was grateful on the other hand I was so sad. So sad that I will be forever reminded of this great sorrow of my life. My precious one that I love so much. The one that I can only imagine our lives together. The one that I will always long to see and to be with.

Today I pray that God will give me the strength to go on and fill my hollow part of my heart with whatever you have planned for me. There is such a big hole that is empty now that He must have a plan for me and my family.

Father, I pray that You will fill it up. Guide us to walk out of this valley. You created my precious child with the gentlest of hands. You were with Caelee before he was born, and I know you will tenderly watch over him forever.

"Your eyes saw my unformed body. All the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be" (Psalm 139:16).

Heavenly Jesus, bring me words of true comfort today. Thank you that
Caeleebee is alive and well with You. Amen