He will come and save

It has been very hard these few days. The Spirit is strong but my mind is weak. I am in deep sorrow missing Caelan. Once I start thinking of him, I just can't stop crying.



Yesterday, God was gracious to send Wynsome and Jason over to watch over the boys for me so I could spend some time thinking and missing Caelee at home on my day off. But my sadness was overwhelming. My heart tells me Caelan is in a better place but my mind tells me how deeply I miss him by my side.



As I was lighting candles in rememberance of Caelan, I thought to myself: "I hardly even have time to carry on this ritual... it would have been hard to have four boys at home to care for...Caelan is indeed in a better place." With that thought, much regrets and guilt came across my mind.



I hardly even have time to grief. I am for sure experiencing the hardest time in my life. I can't seem to dig myself out of the blues.



Last night as I was sitting still, remembering Caelee, sinking further and further down into a pit of sadness, a song came to my mind out of the blue (no pun intended). "Say to those who are brokenhearted, do not lose your faith." As the tune rang in my head for a while, I asked Tommy for the lyrics. He promptly fetched me a copy of the song. I read through the lyrics and I said to him that this song must be taken from the book of Isiah. I found myself speaking with confidence but I really had no idea where it came from. I have very little bible knowledge. Tommy quickly looked up the verse and confirmed that it was from the book of Isiah. As I read the verse, the word of God instantly brought me comfort and assurance. I knew deep inside, it was the Holy Spirit guiding me and lifting me up when I was in despair.



When I shared this song with Wynsome, she replied with her usual matter-of-fact attitude. "Oh yeah, you used to force us to sing this song in the youth group. You loved that song which no one knew how to sing." I was instantly deflated (because I thought that this was a new song God put in my heart) but at the same time in awe at God's providence.



Today I am still very sad and feel enormously empty inside. But I do have the certainty that my God will not forsake me. He will carry me through in His loving arms at this time of sorrow. He will for sure come and save me when I call on Him. One day, He will make me strong in ways that He intends for me to be and I will "arise again" while I continously lift my eyes on Him. I shall not lose faith!





He will Come and Save You by Bob Fitts


Say to those who are fearful hearted
Do not be afraid
The Lord your God is strong
And with His mighty arms
When you call out His Name

He will come and save
He will come and save you
He will come and save you
Say to the weary one
Your God will surely come

He will come and save you


He will come and save you
He will come and save you
Lift up your eyes to Him
You will arise again
He will come and save you


Say to those who are broken hearted
Do not lose your faith
The Lord your God is strong
With His loving arms
When you call on His Name
He will come and save

He is our refuge in the day of trouble
He is our shelter in the time of storm
He is our tower in the day of sorrow
Our fortress in the time of war


Lift up your eyes to Him
You will arise again
He will come and save you
Lift up your eyes to Him
You will arise again
He will come and save you



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